Loved and Love

I want to curl up in my bed
Pesticides in my head
Feelings and actions do collide
Do not ever tell me I cant cry
Have you ever wanted to die?

Tears well up in my eyes
When I think of you tonight
I wish you were here, even though your not
I'll pack this bowl for two

Even though I probably wont ever be with you
People stand in the way
I really want you on this sobby day
We wont ever be true blue.

Wear the black and smoke the green
There's only one side of you I have seen
I heard there's many more
But maybe you're

True, and sweet when needs be
My heart's always open no need for a key
So just relax and open you heart
This isn't the end, it's just a start.

I wish you would understand
How I wish to hold your hand.

*IMPORTANT* - The first two stanzas are about a past lover and the rest is a desired love. It's weird, I know. [: