I smoke cigarrettes instead of cutting...the day i was going to quit smoking, when i was finnally ready, because i had no more stress in my life, that same day that i had finnally made this decision, my gf broke up with me. The next day and one day more, i smoked more than i had ever smoked before. It is a very well written poem. my fav. part is "Tired of not being seen but looked at." awesome.