Night after night, before tonight,
My heart was mending...
now its over after only a glimpse of who i use to be.
My tears brake lose streaking my face in pain,
My heart starts that steady painful thump...
Thump...thump...thump.
It feels like its going to kill me...
I want to feel nothing again...
Go numb again...
But i cant...
I trusted again...
I trusted another and got hurt.
My heart begs to be placed back together...
No one... no one can...
Everyone WANTS everyone thinks they NEED...
They take you all of you...and leave you...
They want sex...they'll take it...
They want love...Its theirs...
They want your heart...they steal it...
Being let down easy is the worst part...
Oh yes...the very worst.
You hear what they say...
YES...you hear it...
You listen very well...
Your mind replays on what you could have done...
You'd like to say nothing...
But at this point...
EVERYTHING you've EVER done was a mistake...
You're at the lowest point possible
and you know it has to be all your fault.
At this point...here i am..
Alone with my broken heart in my hands...
Once again...
Men had stopped hurting me like this...
Men had stooped effecting me at all...
But here after her...
my heart is as shattered now
as it was with my first few boyfriends.
I don't wanna learn girls are the same...
Id like to think their not.
I want hope again...
And now...once again my hope for love is shot down...
My heart stays broken...
And my words unheard.
My tears unseen,
And my pain hidden deep.
What I wanted was hope,
What I got was what I deserved for being foolish.
I got a slap in the face...
I got a punch in the gut.
I was disregarded
for a fact that she didn't have the gut to tell.
Gave me a sweet goodbye lie.
It wasn't intended to be a goodbye...
But my emotions being to strong...
I had to leave...
I was falling in love with love...
I was tempted by the unknown.
You'd think dating someone like you would be easy...
So that if you wouldn't hurt someone why would they?
...but no...
I sit out on my roof top tonight...
I stair at the stars,
my mind wonders to what I could have done better...
When the stars answer its always a simple no...
Yet you're heart yarns for a yes...
Just so theres hope that you can do better next time...
But no...
Love is wild... cant be tamed...
Cant be conversed with in a civil manor...
Its an uncharted wood that despises every step u take..
But I'll live i guess...
I'll move on...
Still wishing that;
my own personal rules wouldn't make me give her up...
"Person dumps me once...
don't give them the chance to do it again"
It hurts...but in the end...I can take care of myself...
Patch up my heart and move on...
(self explanatory... sorry it is long... i really liked you Nessa...)
