Some days, I wonder why you abandoned us.
We didn't have to be the couple, all that I needed was friendship.
It deeply angers, saddens me that I wake up to one lost friend; like the penny in the drain.
I've experienced friendship disasters, but I've double dipped into this one foolishly.
Just for your information, I dreamed about you last night.
We were in a burning building with a lot of people unconscious, except for me.
The others there, layed my father and my best friend, there also layed you.
The smoke thickened and I only had strength to help one.
No matter how little control I have over my dreams..
for some reason I saved you.
It deeply Angers, saddens me that I woke up to one lost friend.
Later in my lull of sleep, I found myself with you,
still in my arms as your eyes started to open, this situation was likewise.. a mess.
I buried my nose into your neck, crying; you put your hand on the back of my head, asking what happened.
I told you, with my fists clenched, that I had to make the toughest decision in my life.
It cost me my family, and my friend, but to compliment the taste of irony, I saved the woman that abandoned me, you.
To this distasteful disdain. I've never quite figured why it was you I saved.
Nor have I figured out why I couldn't save everyone. perhaps because I was never strong enough.
Countless people tell me that it isn't my fault, it is all yours.
No matter how much I agree, or comforts me,
I'm still angered, saddened that I have to wake up to one lost friend.
In my ventures throughout the world, I may never find you, nor may I want to.
But I hope someday you'll find your way back.
Don't make me regret saving you,
because it angers, saddens me to say; goodbye my one lost friend.
Last poem I'm going to make about this. Because its time to move on, stand when it doesn't feel like I can stand much longer. and raise my head up to hope for the best. Wish for happiness and have faith God has someone in store for me.
