Worlds apart

I fight back my old emotions
Because I can't bare to speak your name
The memory of you is the fuel
That pours onto my hearts open flame

Every time I think of you
Your empty eyes haunt my mind
Because my love for you is something
I could never hope to leave behind

I can still hear you calling my name
Begging me to end the pain
It takes every ounce of strength I have
Just to keep me semi-sane

I can still hear you whispering
I love you in your final breath
I still collapse at the thought
Begging and pleading god for death

I will always blame myself
Though everyone swears it's not
This pain flows into me over and over
Infecting every single thought

Every whisper I hear inside my head
Is like a sick and deadly taunt
I stare down the barrel of this 45
And know this isn't what you'd want

I guess relief is something
That I could never hope to find
Even when we're worlds apart
You're all thats on my mind

Dedicated To: Jenny