I can't believe it

It has been two months as of today
The sorrow is yet to go away
I keep hoping that it's not true with every waking dawn
Because I just can't believe you are really gone

Everyday is a trial to try and make it without crying
It is hard to know the last time I saw you, you were dying
I wish I could go back to those last few days and stay there forever
But I know it is best that you went with all the pain you had to endeavor

I was so mad, angry, sad, and upset when I heard you passed away
The next morning was Easter which was supposed to be a happy day
On the day of your death a void in my life appeared
Celebrating the resurrection of Christ the very next day is the only reason it disappeared

Flying back for your funeral was really hard
It was so painful now that my life was permanently scared
It was difficult to be at your house without you there
When I walked in I felt your absence in the air

That weekend was the worst I have been through
how much it hurt only God really knew
But, I praise Jesus for all the time we got together
I miss you always and I will love you forever