I Killed Them All

by ibelievedhim   Aug 17, 2009


Good bye world I don't belong
All I do is sing the same song
Wear the same dress, cry the same tears
Write the same poem about the same fears

I can't even smile, can't even write
He's inside me, can't even fight
All I do is cause hurt and pain
Slice my wrist and leave this stain

He says I killed him long ago
While I was living and didn't know
Numb to the core as I lay awake
All the hatred I just cant shake

Hate for the girl who's trapped inside
Scratching desparately, but I've lied
Clawing, clawing, stuck within
pennance for every dirty sin

Cying so hard for tonight is the end
The last ugly poem that I have penned
All I can do is ask myself why
I cut and bleed and let myself die

I love you Shayla and Sophie my two best kitties. I love you Katie, Alyssa, and Ingrid my closest girlfriends. And even though you left Grandpa I love you so so much and I love you Christina my wonderful sister. Even though you're not always here. Mommy sometimes I wonder if you do love me, and I know that hurts but you never say it. Daddy :) My best friend, I love you so much for always taking care of me and telling me you love me every day. I know you felt that sometimes Mommy didn't love you either, but we both love her so so much. And Grandma and all my cousins and aunts and uncles. I love you guys so much for always telling me you believe in me and that you're proud of me. And to my love, who DID make me believe I was pretty. Who let me see a different side of myself. To you I will always be grateful. I love you more than you will ever know. I hope you know, you were the one. There was never anyone else before you, and there would not have been anyone after you. You always have my heart it's yours to keep. I hope I will always be your angel <333

Love, Katie

Monday August 17, 2009 5:25 pm

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  • 15 years ago

    by sadeyes

    I am sorry you feel so hurt and lost because of someone's else's hand I am hear if you need me

  • 15 years ago

    by silvertung69

    OOh katie, The lonly hearts are always the hardest ones to heal.The serets of life will never be reveled to man for then what would be the reason to live.to live a life is like going to school you take the lessons learned on to the next step.The thing is that the more lessons you learn here the bigger step you take when you go.

  • 15 years ago

    by Dreamofolwin

    A very heartfelt, well expressed poem...full of deep emotions. Wishing you all the best...
    Take care, and keep wrting!

    All the best :)
    Olwin.

  • 15 years ago

    by damont

    So sad. im sorrry for your lost. wonderful poem once again i can feel the meaning when i read it lovely keep writing

  • 15 years ago

    by Ingrid

    Katie,

    I hope you didn't got through with this...I have no way to reach you and no way to stop you either.
    You are not alone in what you are going through and if you were to listen to my advice and join a group therapy for people your age, you would know.
    It is hard on me to realize that you may have left already...if not then contact me, I willl stand by you, girl.

    *hugs*

    Ingrid

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