Messed up in the Head

He's all messed up in the head/
and what he's done and he's said/
is the offspring of what he's often seen and heard/
how can he expect to win/
if everybody plus him/
thinks he's naive and maybe stupid what he's saying's absurd/
but somehow he thinks and acts/
keeps his composure in tact/
doesn't snap or get enraged or even overreact/
but he's still yearning respect/
only thing he's earning's a check/
an equal partner is one of the many things that he lacks/
how's he still standing u ask/
u take a sip from ur flask/
remembering the person u r wouldn't take what he takes/
so does that mean that he's perfect/
does that mean that he's worth it/
nah he ain't perfect neither worth it his whole life's a mistake/
he wants to be left alone/
yet he hates to be alone/
he fakes a smile though upset and yet he can't stand the phonies/
all he can think of at night/
is how she lights up his life/
but she's not his shorty baby sweetie nor his tenderoni/
everyone's grown and moved on/
he's figured out if he's gone/
no one would know it and this crazy world would keep spinning/
but since he loves his lil' son/
he didn't go get a gun/
and put it to his temple to speed up his own life ending/
but everyday its a thought/
still tries to do what he's taught/
do the right thing be kind to others even those that diss u/
he's tired too many tries/
bangs on the wall as he cries/
only alone cuz god forbid u found out he got issues/
his self-esteem's at a low/
u wonder where did it go/
such a looker l.o.l. and they all seem to love him/
I guess that's only his shell/
inside he's screwed up "oh well"/
they go on wit their lives as long as someone's there to love them/
but no one's there to love him/
he starts to like her and then/
he tries to call her but she's got a good head on her shoulders/
so she don't pick up his ring/
and she won't accept his ring/
if he somehow gave her one cuz suddenly he is bolder/
but see he does know his place/
can't hide the smile on his face/
but he won't overstep his bounds or cause the girl no trouble/
but if he gets himself free/
he really wants her to be/
his wifey but that thought gets shot down like on the double/
so now that he's spoke his mind/
like "I want u to be mine"/
its bad timin and she don't think about him in that manner/
so any respect is lost/
he didn't count out the cost/
he's all messed up in his head but no one knows it don't matter/