I kno I have to do this
I kno I have to stay strong
After all it is my mom
Mom is such a hard word to say
I love her so much
At the same time I have so much hate
Im so angry, I wish things turned out different
She did so much to hurt me
In a way she took my life away
I would have been so much different
Sometimes my mind wonders
Sometime I want to give up
And just go back to my fermila place
The place in my heart
Home the place I recognized with hurt and pain
The place love is all a game
The place no one cares, im alone fighting for my life
My life already got so much taking away
Now im starting over
Knowing right from wrong
Everything they thaught me
Everything they showed me
Was all wrong
Im learning this now
It hurts so much
I know I can get through this
I have myself
I have to pull through things on my own
When I c my mom
A million things goes through my head
I want to yell and scream
Somehow I hold back
The past is the past
I will never move back
Tomorrow at my appointment im so scared
So many hours
So far away
I don�¢ï¿½ï¿½t want her to hurt me
No one will be around
Im so scared
I want my ghoast
I want to switch
That way I dont need to keep dealing
Being in a world so confusing
I just dont understand
Im just that girl
So scared
I want my life to be different
At tassi im so much happier
At the club im scared
I know what I want
I know were I feel safe
When I get upset I do thigns
When I get upset I say things
I cant help it
Its one of my issues
I know tomorrow will be hard
Look at the facts
At the end of the day
Its only me and my ghoast!!!
Im gonna be ok J
Im right were I should be
She wont set me back!!
