I think this woman named Shana at my job is very hot and pretty.
I just can't believe I'm shy and that's freaking shitty.
I want to see Elizabeth me and Elizabeth just connect you just don't know.
I know everything seems to be messing up yeah I know.
I just want to treat her like the queen that she is.
I don't know if it will work out with Carrie and I.
I mean I want to be together with Carrie but I don't want the same things happening that happened last time.
I know I don't have to tell everybody my business but it's just my line.
Sometimes you can get beat up for snitching or worst killed.
I just want to know what is my deal.
Why can't I have a girlfriend better yet a wife?
I just want a better life.
Don't me get wrong I'm kinda happy about this life.
Although I do not like working for some other man.
I want to be my own boss, I want to be my own man.
I need to figure my life out, I don't want to be 50 and still single.
I know I have a long ways to go before I'm 50, so let's mingle.
I want a punching bag so I can punch it everyday and relieve some stress.
I would also like to see a woman that I love in a wedding dress.
I like Juicy Fruit gum!
Sometimes I feel so dumb!
I like reading my US History flash cards with my dad.
I'll admit there's days that I'm not always glad.
Sometimes I don't like people like Bryan the front desk manager always looking at me when I walk by like I'm a criminal or something.
I'm not a criminal I've only been to jail once and that's for shoplifting Cd's from Wal-mart and got caught and I learned my lesson especially after I spent a day in the county.
No one is going to bound me.
Unless I want them to control me!
I don't want to get in trouble because I don't like cops and I definitely don't like jail.
If I get pulled over I will just pull over and stop.
I'm not stupid enough to run from the police.
Sometimes I feel like people have me on a leash.
Sometimes I like being on a leash.
From now on I want to try to keep a smile on my face.
I'm going to start worrying about the right things.
If Luisa likes Howard it's her choice.
Why should I raise my voice?
Luisa is still a good friend she gives me a ride home most days.
Maybe Sophia is right I don't need pills but I do get anxious when I'm in a big crowd.
I'm still going to keep taking my generic Xanax but I'm not going to get addicted.
You shouldn't keep anything secret.
Well some stuff is best to keep secret.
I don't know what stuff is best to keep secret.
I just wish people would just live their lives.
If I keep on getting into other people's business, they are going to get into my business.
I'm really a good guy I can't believe I've been working at the Courtyard By Marriott for almost 5 years, it will be 5 years in February.
It feels great to be me.
You know part of me wishes me and Carrie would get married.
Also part of me don't want to be tied down with just one woman.
Sounding like that I sound like every other man.
I've only known Elizabeth for like a week or something but I'm already starting to love her.
