Small Dirty Secret

I wonder if she ever knew how hot she appear in my mind
If I were her, from the jealousy, I would hide myself inside
And I wonder if she ever knew how sexy her skin color is
That brown sugar stuck to her body, it is so delicious
And I wonder if she were ever told, "Damn! Are you real"
Seems like a Barbie doll with a blond silky hair to feel
She is a beautiful creature I been peeking at everyday
I dont chat, or smile; I just stare in each possible way
Sometimes she notice my strong gaze, sometimes she ignore
Whatever she does, it's enough to make my heart beat for
It is totally wrong, but she been making my immunity weak
I can't tell her I desire, because man she would call me a freak
So here is the thing, I will shut my mouth up and do my work
Yet I would still look at her, part of me is still a pervert jerk
So I rather keep all my emotions to me, mix it and beat it
But hey, shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh it is my small dirty secret!!