I Wonder...

I wonder,what you're doing now?
it's two,twenty three.
i wonder,are you still awake?
may be thinking of me.

i wonder, if i forgive you,
could you ever forgive yourself?
i wonder,if you did really love me?
or was i just another girl on the shelf?

i wonder,how you are?
are you happy?,are you sad?
i wonder,who calm you down,
when your family make you so mad?

i wonder how is your life?
do you find it easier without me.
i wonder,have you forgot about us,
or living on the memory of how things used to be?

i wonder,do i cross your mind,late at night?
or do i ever cross your mind at all.
i wonder,when you're sad,
who you're going to call?

i wonder,do you watch me from afar?
making sure that I'm okay.
i wonder,how you think i feel?
have you got any idea,that I'm dying every day?

i wonder,are you satisfied with your cell?
or you still searching for a better one.
i wonder,you still trying to quit smoking?
or you've just given up and done.

i wonder,do you wash your car so often?
or you wait till it's full of dust and dirt.
i wonder,when you're getting dressed,
do you wear my favorite shirt?

i wonder,when you cross our street,
do you imagine my face?
i wonder,do you wish i was still there,
or can someone else take my place?

i wonder,do you watch my stars?
or you still try to find,where they are?
i wonder,do you search for my hand,to hold,
every time you're driving your car?

i wonder,don't you miss me?
lying on your chest,listening to your heart beat.
i wonder,if i ever again,could hold you so tight?
for one last time,i can make you feel complete.

i wonder,for how long,i would be reminiscing?
every detail,from your eyes to your scent.
i wonder,have i ever told you?
you were my angel,from up above,had been sent.

i wonder,when you feel the whole world is against you,
do you wanna run to my arms?
i wonder,if you still see me,as your protection,
that i can keep you safe,from any harms?

i wonder,am i still your heart,your soul,
am i still the reason you're living for?
i wonder,if you once more had the choice?
would you still be walking out that door?

i wonder,what you say about me?
you still see me,as one of a kind.
i wonder,if anyone could ever love you more?
or this someone,you may never find.

i wonder,am i too easy to forget?
or do you still dream of my touch?
i wonder,do you even remember me..?
I'm the girl,who needs you so much.

i wonder,did you really wanted me to be happy?
if yes,then tell me, why I'm crying these tears.
i wonder,what went wrong?,what did i do?
that made you so uncertain and filled you with fears?

i wonder,was you really trying to make me hate you?
or the things you said was real.
i wonder,if this is the way you see me now,
if this is how,you deep down feel?

i wonder,do you still love me?
because,every day i need you even more.
i wonder,and i wonder..these thoughts are killing me.
as i look..and it's only two,twenty four