I'm Trying . .

I smile so you think I'm okay,
I laugh cause if I don't I'll break down and cry.
I put on a hard front to pull myself together,
Cause I know you worry every single day whether I might try and die again
I promised that I would stay
But I can see you still think i might go
I understand that you're scared
After everything that happened before
I try to get those thought out of head
I swear Mum, I'm trying really hard.