I sit here and watch you with her
my best friend
knowing i caused this
i pushed you into her arms
i pushed you away
you kiss her lips
and i close my eyes
hiding from the truth before my very eyes
even though i love him
even though he is my whole world
you hold a part of my heart
a part that i can never replace or take back
a tear falls unseen down cheeks that just can't smile
for the sake of my heart i look away from you
wanting those arms to be holding me
not her
wanting those lips to be caressing mine
not hers
but i know that you are happy
and so is she
and i love you both
so i turn away
forcing my heart to stay stranded in denial
i can't take seeing you with her
it hurts too much
so i'll look away and wait for my own chance
my chance at happiness
i wait for him to come home
and hold me once again
but until then my heart keeps beating for you
aching for you
missing you
i know ill be okay in time
i know your memory will fade
but right now..
i don't know how to explain it..
it just feel like my heart is being torn from my very chest and thrown into a fire..
burnt to ashes..
of no use to anyone anymore..
