Positive.

All the things I took for granted
are fading from me suddenly;
too far away to grasp at,
just slightly out of my reach.

Everything I said I hated,
I now realize I love
and would give anything
to have again

I judged, I slandered
I thought myself above you,
and just like everyone else
I never gave second chances.

I feel as if I am drowning
in a dream that there is
no hope to wake up from.

Is this real?
Am I real?
How did it come to this?
Why, why, why?

Have I commited some travesty?
Is there some divine purpose
to this punishment?
I feel as if enlightenment is
just out of my range of understanding.

I was typical,
a girl trying to be special, different.
Only to realize that I
am very much human.

I feel afraid, but I feel
resigned to being strong enough
to live through this.

I am not alone,
never alone.
I have been thrust into change
with no warning or direction.

My eyes are open
but i'm not sure I like
what I see.