Today I ponder.
I think about how if everything had worked out i wouldnt still cry at night.
I think maybe it was MY fault.
Tonight I ponder.
Maybe if my family was still together i wouldnt have turned to sneaky late night drinking.
Tonight i ponder.
Those panic attacks might have been nonexsistent if everything hadn't gone wrong.
Tonight I ponder.
Its not that i like to dwell on the bad side.
I just wish things had turned out differently.
I miss the simplicity.I miss the laughter,
The actual hope.
I miss it.J miss you.J miss everything,
But it's to late to go back now.
All i can do now is ponder.
