Sitting alone in the dark
I try to block out the sounds
of the doors slamming,
voices yelling
and the horrible words being spoken.
Trying to pretend that I'm not here,
I want to be anywhere else,
just so tired of the constant fighting,
the constant anger
and the silent resentment.
Praying I'll be able to leave this soon,
I really just can't take anymore,
their angry so I have to take the brunt,
convenient to lash out at me,
it makes me feel like such a mistake.
Take a deep breath
and pretend it doesn't hurt,
bury it deep inside again,
paste a smile on and act normal,
just another happy family.
I accept no matter what I do
it's going to be wrong right now anyway
but please just leave me alone,
me crying and quiet simply means
you've already hurt me enough.
I hug myself tightly
and say I'm ok
but I'm so tired of being hurt,
tired of all the fighting,
please just give it a break.
