Left for dead

I lived through the battle
But the war is far from finished
The scars show vibrant white against my chest
Far from being diminished

Every scar across my body
Whispers their story inside my head
Every failure, every screw up,
Every time I've been close to dead

My skin has gone numb
My body constantly sore
With every whisper my scars
Inflict the pain once more

No bars to keep me caged
And yet I still feel imprisoned
Every pain you've ever dreamed of
I've felt what you've envisioned

every inhale I shudder to take
brings me closer to my final breath
I've been left for dead so long
I'm looking forward to my death