My sinking ship

Sinking ship ahead of me,
Drowning slowly inside of me,
And I know it's gonna break,
But there's nothing I can do,
To save the last remaining will,
And run like Hell away from you.

I've been warned a thousand times,
Nightmares begging to withdraw,
But when it comes to strength in love,
I guess I drew the shortest straw.

I lay beside you in the night,
Watching every move you make,
Waiting for the next psychosis,
Waiting for my next mistake.

Blindly I obey my heart,
Telling me to hold you close,
Forgive the anger that you're brewing,
Forgive the lessor life I chose.

I know I cannot ever leave you,
I know it's way too late for me,
So I'll just lay here in the Darkness,
Waiting for the fall to be.

- xxx