Well this was very depressing!

If these feelings are true for you, personally, then I'm so sorry you feel this way, sweetie. Sometimes we push those away because we're afraid of being even more hurt than we have been already. I've learned, however, that sometimes letting people in is the best cure for my sadness. It gives us somebody to talk to, just to share our worries, so the burden isn't as strong.

I hope things better for you. :)