Sorry

I sit here on the brink of Tears.
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It feels like i haven't spoken to you in years.

But in reality it has been weeks.

You hurt me bad then left.
Its like You caused me my death.

My stomach turns and heaves.
If i say hello i know You will leave.

I miss you so much but i hide it well.
in my happy thoughts i must dwell.

But every now and again my pain breaks my mask.
But that never really lasts.

My friends don't even know about you.
Ha! if only they knew!

Why?

Why did u leave?

you knew what it would do to me.
Now I'm sorry that I'm like this.

Sorry that I'm broken.
sorry that this smile is fake.
sorry that I'm about to break.
sorry that this world holds nothing for me.
Sorry that i now must break free.

My senses cut off and i fall.

Fall into blackness and i call.
I call Your name.
I let loose all my pain.

And thats how my life ends