Why is it...

U believe the lie
u believe the fake smile
u believe the fake laugh
u believe it will be alright

u will never understand whats inside
u will never no what i feel
u will never feel wot i feel
u will never think the way i think

i cant change my past
i cant change whats happening now
i cant change ur choices
i cant force u to make me better

none will no how i suffer
suffer each and ever moment
moment awake or asleep
asleep with nightmares

it goes round and round
like a wheel on the motorway
too many thoughts
it doesnt make sense

like a pile of boxes
it builds a mansion
its all crashing down
fall on top of me beside me all around me

how to explain so u understand
its impossible
u didnt live through wot i survived
why is it falling apart now

she isnt here to ruin me no more
she cant touch me
she cant ruin my life
but she has even now when im out of her grasp