Your Intentions Were Pure

I'm not saying you weren't there,
Because you were. I saw you watching.
I'm not saying you didn't care,
Because I know you did. I saw that too.

But I'm going to tell you,
You smothered me,
Suffocated me,
Kept me trapped.
When all I wanted to do was breath.

I didn't want to talk,
I didn't want to explain,
I just wanted quiet from the chaos.

The pressure to share,
Intentional or not,
Added to my woes.

I know you didn't understand,
You knew you didn't either,
You tried, I saw that.
But every step you took was the wrong one.
There was no right path you could of walked,
It was war, and I was the bomb about to explode.

Wrapping me in cotton wool added fuel to the fire,
But if you didn't I would of asked why you didn't care.

That's what I'm trying to say,
Each turn created new obstacles,
But doing nothing would of caused problems too.

I love you, you're my family, my friend,
I know you love me too, I feel it everyday,
But don't pretend you knew how I felt,
That you understood,
Don't pity me or make me feel small,
Intentionally or not,
It adds salt to my wounds, making it harder to heal,
Attacking my new guard.

All I can say now is,
I'm not a child.
You don't have to carry me.
Let me go.
Let the past go.
You'll never know how it felt.
I'll never try to explain it.