Warm like-
The coffee I pour down my throat.

*I love this line!!! It's so vivid. It's a new way to desrcibe a warm feeling. very creative hun.

Waiting.

*I'd put some more periods after this so show the waiting... you know what I mean lol. I think the extra periods would put an emphasis on the word*

And when it hits-
It slams. Hard.

*I'd change this to
And when it hits...
It SLAMS...hard.
that way you put some emphasis on "slam" With it being all capitil I feel like I'm being hit to. *
So black. So dark-

*I think a period after So dark would fit better than a dash.*

Like a bomb exploded,

*I think "like a bomb exploding sounds better there. Overall I really liked this poem. I feel like you explained all the ways you were hurt and how much it surprised you. I love the creative way you worded this. Keep it up deary :) Nik*