I cannot believe my ears
I am trying my best to block out the words I have heard
Even though it is best that I am informed by them
I cannot trust my eyes
For they play games all the time
And when they water with tears
The world disappears
I literally feel myself breaking down
And the pain is utterly unbearable
It seems I have climbed the wrong wall
And now I can't get back over
I try desperately to accept the things I cannot change
For this is the only option I now have
But my mind knows what I truly feel
Therefor I am heatbroken
But my heart can't actually break
Because then I'd be dead
I have gone where I never thought I would
And maybe this let me take a step forward
But I do not want to move yet
Only until I am ready to leap instead
