09/08/09
The silence spread between us, as the night kept going on
Fireflies were shining,and the crickets sung their song
He asked me what was hurting, why the blues was on my mind
He wondered where my smile was, what caused my grin to hide
He'd never understand me, I explained to him before
How this guy had took my heart and left me with nothing more
"Try to tell me one more time, explain why he makes your heart beat
tell me what he means to you, I really want to see"
"I tried before to let you know, but you just shook your head
He wasn't good enough for me, is all you ever said"
"I insist you let it out right now, I'm here to be your shoulder
Define to me what makes him special, I hope that he's not older"
I managed a laugh as I looked in his eyes, this boy who really cared
The glimmer I saw had told me that, he would always be there
I knew that then I had no choice, i had to let it out
these feelings that I held inside, concealed within my doubt
"There is this boy whom i really like, who does some things to me
nothing that would harm myself, at least not physically
Apart from that my heart seems full, and i have this ache inside
I really want to tell him this, how he seems to be on my mind"
He gave me a smirk and told me this,"then let it out to me
I'll listen to you and wait till your finished, I'll be as quiet as a tree"
I took a deep breathe, it was finally time to put these thoughts away
I looked in your eyes and slowly said what I've wanted to say
"His smile gives me sudden chills, as the dimples are so cute
he's funny and he makes me laugh, something I'm not so used too
Sometimes I see the other girls standing by his side
For some odd reason I can't help it, I want him out of my sight
But easily my mind would change as he'd look me in the eye
A knowing look that I could tell, he was wondering if i was alright
He'd care about me and make me smile,
when it was the last thing i wanted to do
and he'd give me hugs that took me from harm
holding me closer to the moon
I get excited with such thoughts of him, running through my head
I grin as I whisper in my brain, i want to see him again"
"Okay I get it I've had enough, you really like him, so
go tell him how you feel and then why don't you leave me alone?"
why is he so angry with me? could he still not see?
"don't you get it? don't you understand? are you not listening to me?"
"I've listened, and I've had enough. This is to much for me to know.
go make this guy your boyfriend, cause he really needs to know?"
"Know?" I couldn't understand what he meant "know, what do you mean?"
and then he turned around and said, everything I couldn't believe
"How lucky he is to have a girl like you,thinking of him all the time.
How I would give almost everything, to be where he is tonight."
He finally said what I wanted to hear, and now it was my turn to confess
The moment of truth, the moment of change, the moment to finish the test
He began to walk away from me, but I had one more thing to say
"I never liked to see him leave, so please don't turn away"
"But?" I had to laugh at him, with the expression across his face
"You really didn't get it, did you? The boy I like this way..."
He shook his head, as if to say no, so I went into his arms
I looked up into his puppy dog eyes, and felt like nothing was wrong
"The boy you really like, you say,...no no it can't be, ...me?"
I nodded and he held me close, the only place I always want to be.
