I hate this world around me
The noise and life
The angry words and lies
The tears and the cries
I did not ask to be born in this world of grief
Of pain and sorrow
And melancholy
I did not ask to be given this life
Of guilt and regrets
And pain that cannot be shared
I looked around me
And all I see are people trying to push the blame
People trying to hide their shame
For every joy there are ten sorrows
Daggers behind every smile
Who has ever stop and see
The rainbow behind those lofty trees
Every night when I lay to rest
As I remember the life I had
I pray that I would never see
The sunrise from my window slits
I wonder why am I allowed to live
When all I caused are pain and sufferings
Why am I forced to breathe
Those air of hypocrisy
Why must I smile when my heart aches
Why must I laugh even though I'm in pain
Why must I joke with people
Who couldn't understand me
I pray for the day that I will finally be laid to rest
The day I can finally sleep in peace
If only the angels can grant me a wish
I would wish never to exist .
