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by Seth Rowley Sep 15, 2009 category : Life, society / meaning of life
I can't help it if people love me. I don't worry about people I kind of tend to myself. I do care for people I love and care about the most. It's just hard to distinguish whether or not that the woman is just using me for my money or does she really like me. Alot of women smile at me but I'm wondering if they do that just because they have to. I just don't have that much self-confidence. Maybe I do need to ask a counselor for some advice! Andre is kinda like my counselor he gives me good advice when I need it. Sometimes he gets mad at me because I ask stupid shit. I'm trying not to worry about problems at work because nobody worries about me when they get home. Alot of people could care less about what I do. Alot of people just want to get high and watch their lives pass by. I want to enjoy every minute of my life. I'm not weird I just have some issues I need to straighten up. I hate doing the lobby floors at the hotel I work at because I feel like Bruce or Bryan is always watching me, even when I'm not doing anything wrong. I'm a grown man I think I would know if I was doing wrong. I'm doing wrong by cuddling with Elizabeth when I know she is still married. I'm sorry I just can't help myself. I'll let god be the decision maker on whether or not I go to hell. If there even is a hell. I believe in heaven but I don't think god will let you burn for a petty sin. These are just my thoughts and opinions.