Your a scratched skipping song in my head

I snap into a delusioned state

of hating you

pressing on and on

taking days as weeks

and counteracting painful memories

with side splitting cuts

and pills coaxing me into placidness...

I hate myself for loving a monster like you

crazed moments

punched in plaster

cut knuckles

pale distorted face...

a body suffocated in sweat

muttering feverishly

rolling side to side

upright in bed

screaming your pretty little name
i don't think i can handle this

pray for the little depressant

pray she doesn't do sh**t

i know your only praying!!!

because everyone will blame you for it
razor slowly slipping out of fingers...

taking an age to hit the blood tinged tiles

and one single tear falls onto her wrist...

it hurts to much to act like its all ok

i cant play the "im fine" game anymore

its F**cking me up

i cant be something im not

mum told me to keep things to myself...

she knows there scared of what i'm capable of...

she tells me to keep it in

and not let it out...

so from there prying eyes

i bleed inside out