I remember the days
where I fell so hard and fast,
blindly leaping off a cliff
into the pool of love.
when I got all googly eyed over
the guys that kept me close
and gave them my whole world,
idiotically.
I didn't know they were all
users and abusers
of my heart,
and soon I came
crashing down.
since then I know better
than to let my heart leap outta my chest
and chase those typical boys around.
I've given love one, too many chances
and ended up on the ground
way too often.
had to pick myself off the ground
and battle through life alone
because it seems better than
knowingly heading for a next disaster
for the heart.
the guys still try to come and go,
but I'm jaded
and sick and tired of heartache.
don't take it personal,
pushing you away is a normal thing for me.
you say you're different,
and I can't help but laugh
because that's what all the others
had claimed.
I'm just being 'smart' and cautious
by guarding my heart,
cause I really think it cant take anymore.
letting you in isn't as easy as it sounds,
so you'll forgive me
for not making you my everything.
