Ran over

This is true. This actually happened to me.

Does it make you crazy, that you want to die ?
Cant take life no more and cant find no where to hide ?
Bored ov cutting yourself, cause you cant take the scars no more ?
Cant seem to get out ov that life, cant find the right door ?
No space on your body, to do a couple more cuts ?
Ran out ov exuses, sept - i needed to but ?

Have you ever got to the point where you think about dying every single day ?
Try and block it out but it just wont go away ?
Talk to your friends, but they just dont understand your pain ?
Tell you its 'all going to be fine', but the feelings remain ?
Feel like your all alone, that no one really cares ?
That your bored ov pinning them your pain, that they dont want to be there ?

Everyday i went through this, that the world was against me, everyday i felt bad, cause this world, its not for me ?

I felt id overstayed my welcome, that i neded to die, cause life was confusing, too tricky to try ?

Id had enough ov cutting, my body was too bad, my scars told my story, ov each time i was sad ?

So i was out with my mates, getting drunk under a bridge on the A3, and said, im going to do something about this !, so i walked away from them, leavin them with not a clue ov what i was doing, charley ran after me, trting to pull me back, but i ran away from her.

Three cars swerved pasr me, 60mph speeding right past me. I closed my eyes, held my arms to my side, lights shinning at me, beeping.

Then i woke up, plugged to a machine and filled with moorpheen. First thing i did when i woke up was - Why am i alive ?.

I was in a coma fir a day, and paralyzed for a week. I had to learn how to walk again and sit up and change and wash myself.

Im left with even more scars now.

No skin was left on my arm, so they had to take skin off my leg and put it on my arm, fractured eye socket, death in left ear, vertigo, broken ankle, big scar across my face, scars all up my back, but most ov all .. horrible flash backs.

And tgis is all down to LOVE. Love really does hurt.

If i managed to live after being hit at 65mph, then maybe there is a reason im in this life, all you have to do is wait till it gets better.