Beside myself

Seven years of friendship, two years of love
One broken heart, three words not spoken of
A churning stomach, weak in the knees
Confused in the head, a torn heart that bleeds

They all say it was puppy love and that it wasn't real
I say they're wrong, they can't tell me how I feel
You are my everything, I gave you my all
This is how you repay me? Get my nerves in a ball?

My mind races back to just a few years ago
When we were so happy, full of dreams and hope
Our first kiss, so magical; its starting to fade
Tears rise higher as I wonder why you couldnt have stayed

Those nights we made love, the passion was there
Deep breaths, long sighs, gasping for air
Those times seemed so real, it couldn't have been pretend
Oh how I miss the ecstasy, why does it have to end?

I used to look to my left and then to my right
I always knew you were there, my beautiful shining light
Now its a new day and the sun is breaking dawn
I'm standing beside myself because you chose to be gone

ughhhh.....I have had writers block for months and months..I can't believe I got something out!! pardon my sloppyness!