Endlessly Bleeds

I go through this notebook
It's the rantings of a young woman who endlessly bleeds
Endlessly self-defeats her needs
I can't stop thinking about last night
I kill everything
My moods creating madness, nurturing solitary dreams
I never did know I kill everything
I hate the fact that I have BPD, but strangely enough, I feel this is how it's gonna be
For you I scream into nothingness
The blood stains your knife as you put me to rest
One jab at my heart and you'll breathe my very last breath
We'll be rejoined at the time of death
Dust to dust, everything comes to an end
You were the last feeling going through my heart, God sent
I desecrated my love
Who I was
Even though I kill everything
Far away in the kingdom of the afterlife
I'm sorry, I won't ever stray
For, I love you
And that won't go away
You're a part of me, my heart
Through my self- destructive ways
My love for you stays alive
The never- ending spark