I miss you forever

The sky was gray, lake blue
On my first day of life
Our hands pressed together, wings in my stomach fluttered with you
Sorrow turned to dust, my eyes blue
Wrapped in loves embrasure
That familiar face I know is you
Scratched life into my emaciated flesh
My lips wanted to speak
tell you of the hurt
Instead facade smiles bring
Fear was my best friend on that starry night
And I hugged the shadow in front of me
That moment was infinite
Lost love brings pain for me
I guess this is how it feels to miss someone forever
I ruined all this forever. I'm sorry
I never know when I'll be granted forgiveness
I never know when all this will stop
As far as I know... It's forever