Though I may be jaded
and worn down,
I'm still trying to find my way
to my own heart.
trying to make myself fall for you
but I can't help but think
of how much better you could do
without all my bullshit.
I would love to love
but as soon as you touch my hand,
the brick wall shoots up from the ground
and blocks you from my heart.
do I dare fight off this wall,
tear it down until my hands start to bleed
and would you be worth the fight?
after I'm done pulling brick by brick
will you still be there waiting for me
on the other side?
or am I gonna end up looking out into the horizon
seeing nothing but an empty space
where you used to stand
on the other side of the wall.
don't lead me into this mess,
don't leave me alone again.
don't let me find emptiness where you used to be,
and don't let me once again start picking up the bricks,
rebuilding the wall I had just taken down
for you.
