Alone in a crowded room.

I sit here in silence listening but not hearing.
I feel alone but I still sit with people around me constantly.
Look at me. Look at this wreck.
You question why I turned out this way but you have failed to recognize the true answer yet.
Why I look down instead of ahead?
Or why I hardly talk and remain quiet instead?

I dont wanna feel your prescence around me at all.
F'n stop pretending like you care!
You cant say "I love you" anymore because those feelings have left. THEY ARE NOT THERE!

Forget me. Delete me. Treat me as if you never knew.
Maybe if that happens I'll get use to it faster and stop crying every f'n second like I do.

Pour this ink down on paper let it by my great escape.
If not this then who knows what road less traveled I might be forced to take!

Glance in my direction and look back on how happy I used to be.
Now go back to the present and how we are today and take a good look at me.

I walk alone in a room crowded with people not taking one chance to look behind.
I'd rather stare right in front and later write down my piece of mind.
So be my ghost and I'll be yours.
It can be our own little happy ending.

I can smile and laugh and even LOOK UP and this time I'm over it without PRETENDING.