Please don't make me choose

Holding his picture close to me
as I hug the pillow close
trying to sleep again
and pretend that he's with me,
living in my dream world.

Trying all day long is hard
to keep as busy as I can
just to keep him off my mind
for just a little while
to give me a little reprieve.

Feeling like I'm alone in the world,
cut off from everyone else,
it hurts when I have to fight
the people I love for this
because they say I should just give up.

They say that he's not worth the pain,
unhappiness and the tears
that become a part of my life,
constantly telling me that I deserve better
then what they say I'm settling for.

Can't they see that although this hurts
I'll make it work no matter what I have to do
and that I'd rather feel this pain inside
and get to call him mine
then be happy right now with someone else?

Holding his picture close to me
as I hug the pillow close
trying to sleep again
and pretend that he's with me,
living in my dream world.

It hurts when my supporters switch
and their adding to the stress,
can't you see I'm hurting,
about to break,
I don't have the strength.

Using lines I know you believe,
I know you care and want whats best for me,
tired of seeing me like this,
you try telling me
"maybe it's just all make believe".

I know you're trying to understand
why I'm still here in this relationship,
it doesn't make sense to you, I understand
but can't you see he's a part of me,
please don't make me choose between you and him.

Telling me I'm burning my bridges
and to consider if it's worth it all
because there's no going back,
cutting ties to continue this
and see this through.

Holding his picture close to me
as I hug the pillow close
trying to sleep again
and pretend that he's with me,
living in my dream world.

Warning me that if I keep on like this
I'll lose the friendships I care for,
will it come down to having to choose
between the people I care for
and the man that I love?

I've had to make that choice before,
can't you see that I don't want to let you go
but I can't fight everyone at once,
having to spread myself out thin
trying to be everything all at once.

No I don't like where my life is,
and yes I'm tired of the pain
but choosing him is my only choice,
why can't you understand that
and the lengths that I'm willing to go?

Trying to tell me maybe I should just give up,
find a relationship that won't cut me up,
why can't you just stand by me,
hold my hand as I start to cry
but I'm going to stick with him.

Holding his picture close to me
as I hug the pillow close
trying to sleep again
and pretend that he's with me,
living in my dream world.

I love him with all my heart
and that right there is all the answer,
you tell me to be true to myself
then this is what I need to do
because he's the answer to my life.

I'll find a way to be with him
no matter what it takes
and when the day comes when I'm finally with him
I hope you'll be able to see
why I fight so much to make it.