Did you know that you had hurt me?
I guess you didn't know
because you never cared for me.
Did you know how much the pain you caused me?
No, right?
Because you were selfish.
You only cared about your happiness.
Did you know how many tears I've cried?
You will never know
because I didn't want you seeing my vulnerability.
I didn't want you to know
that I've been miserable because of you.
Did you know that I've had so many sleepless nights?
When I needed to be alone,
you were on my mind,
still giving pain to my heart.
You didn't know everything about me,
and you didn't even tried to know
my feelings,
the happiness I felt when I was with you.
You're not even interested if I'll be gone.
You knew that it was hard for me loving you.
But you just ignored
every sufferings,
every sacrifices that I had done.
Did you ever think of me?
Did you even just tried to love me?
Well, I don't want to know the answer by now.
Even this can change everything about us.
What else can make me better
when the past is full of pain?
What else can make me better?
-oct. 3, 2009
