How I really feel

by Lady Nik   Oct 4, 2009


How can you say you love me
and hold her in your arms?

Does it burn just a little
to see the scars on my heart?

Why would you hurt me
so badly this way?

I'd do whatever was possible
just to have you stay.

But you choose
to cut me up and watch me sink

Deeper and deeper with
little and less air to breathe.

I can't understand
what I did that was so wrong

I'm not the one lying
you caused all of this harm.

Fragile to death will
be my only excuse.

I wish I could hate you
but what would that do.

I would never expect this from
such a gentle spirit.

But now I see your true colors
save your apologies I don't want to hear it.

I'm running out of skin to cut
I wonder what else will help

I never wanted this to happen
but I really can't help but hate myself.

I loved you....damn I still do
but you lied to me like the rest

I know you cheated
and I swear to God I won't forget.

I hope she makes you smile
with her laughter and kisses.

I just want you to know
Happiness and love are my last wishes

I can't do this smile and wave shit anymore
I've done this for the last time.

I gave you my heart damn it
you broke it so this is when I die.

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  • 15 years ago

    by shadowed heart

    I loved how it started off smooth then your emotions and feelings really started to kick in.
    Its amazing how much we put into trusting people with our hearts and easily they break that trust.
    it takes to long to build up but so quick to tear down.

  • 15 years ago

    by guy named Guy

    How our fates surely change.. i know you dont want to hear from me.. and i dont blame you i broke your heart its what i deserve.. well this is and will be the last time i will ever bother you and or anyone.. so yeah.. im sorry but im gonna have to break my promise okay.. i just dont want to feel again so yeah.. ill end it all.. with one last flick of the wrist.. goodbye shanik.. forever..

  • 15 years ago

    by Reaper

    Wow.sad wonderful poem.love u nik

  • 15 years ago

    by ShootingStar179

    Hey! Thanks so much for the comment on "I am the winter". If you could comment on more, I would love it. I can't do as thorough as a critique as you did, because this is longer, but I will do my best...

    Does it burn just a little
    to see the scars on my heart?
    ^Well..this just doesn't make sense to me. He can't see the scars on your heart. I think something relating to fire would be great. Tie along with burn..

    I'd do whatever was possible
    just to have you stay.
    ^Omit 'was'. It cuts off the flow.

    But you choose
    to cut me up and watch me sink
    ^Very unclear. Maybe "cut me up and watch me bleed"?

    Fragile to death will
    be my only excuse.
    ^I don't know what you're saying here. Sorry.

    I wish I could hate you
    but what would that do.
    ^Needs a question mark! =)

    But know I see your true colors
    save your apologies I don't want to hear it.
    ^know needs to be now. Oops!

    I never wanted this to happen
    but I really can't help but hate myself.
    ^This flows soooo well. Great job.

    Overall, I liked it a lot. Just minor kinks!

  • 15 years ago

    by HvN

    I can definitely relate, great job! 5/5

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