Murmur

Murmur *October 7, 2009*

Murmur.
Abnormal beating of the heart,
A disease?
And the name of my sweetheart.

My sickness and her name,
Darkness and light all the same.
Its irony,
Murmur is both happiness and calamity.

If I would die,
I will see people cry.
I don't want to give them pain,
So they wouldn't be in vain.

To die in a bullet is what I want.
It would be grand.
When I'm lying on the sand,
Dead and a gun on my killer's hand.

To die slowly is what I fear.
Fast and easy is what I prefer.
Brutal and mean,
Heroic and clean.