Burned

A shot in the dark where I've been so lost,
I'm giving up the fight.
If God can hear me, let me know,
When things will be alright.

This path I'm on was once in flames,
But now I cannot see.
I chose to burn from false laid guilt,
Because the Devil lied to me.

I thought that burning as I healed,
Would send a message to Him,
But now the dust is choking me,
And the gesture is lost within.

So I've decided to stop, to look,
And hope He knows I try.
I'm smelling flowers and singing louder,
To forgive myself in time.

I'm learning to trust and to let it go,
Because I just can't hide anymore.
My beautiful smile and infectious laugh,
It's too sad to close that door...

Who I am can't be so bad,
In fact I'm loved for that.
I have to remember who I was before,
So I can bring myself back.

The world has beaten me, but I will heal,
Because there had to be a reason.
You always loose to gain a miracle,
And magic is now in season.

I'm grateful for the pain I've felt,
It's made me who I am,
But now it's time for a fearless life,
So I'll make of it all I can.

I'll be loving deeply with no regrets,
And laughing 'till I cry,
Writing and singing and making love,
Appreciating life until the day that I die.

So all that I know of my past is no longer,
I'm sorry and yes I have learned.
That life without living is a waist of this gift,
And that God still loves me...
Even though I've been BURNED.

Please let me know if this poem has touched you in any way, I love comments and positive feedback! Thanks! JAM