Unreal Death of a True Friend

Seems like a bad dream
That we will never awake
Everything today seems unrealistic
Wishing it all be fake

Who would've guessed
End result of your life
We knew of your past
But not of the strife

Why did you take it?
Why didn't you call Mel?
You know she would've been there
She wouldn't of yelled

Its difficult for us all
Knowing we'll never smoke again
Why didn't we open our eyes
To see now from then

This very tormented moment
We wanted time with you to be extend
When your funeral comes
Its going to be very difficult to attend

You left some sad
And most very broken
We're trying to breathe today
But we can't. We haven't been awoken

In a deep nightmare sleep
Trying to differ from fake and real
Why did you leave?
For nothing of us to feel

So, when tomorrow comes
How will it be for all
Will they forget of the tragic
Or will some still feel small?

:'(

R.I.P Ryan Hawkes 10-08-09
You were everything I wanted to be
and so much more

:'(

For those who don't know, He died by O.Ding on heroine

:'(

If i was there, I would've stopped it!