Say You Love Me

Stop the pain
stop the pain of living, the pain of dying.
i look at you, tears burning my eyes as i scream
as i scream this to you, you laugh, you laugh that crocked
little laugh.
you dont believe me, you dont think i will do it.
i look at the knife thats in my hand, the sharp blade
calling.
i lift it, i lift it to that vein, that blue vein, the vein of
death, i screamed at you one last time.
~I will do it!!~
i look you in the eyes, i look at that crocked little
smile, and i know, i know you dont believe me.
i bring the blade closer, closer to that vein, and as
stearing pain shoots up my arm, i see the blood flowing,
lowing down my arm, i kep cutting and as the blade
reaches my elbow. i look up at you, in those eyes and
whisper, ~You didnt believe me, then, but maybe, maybe
if I say it now you will, I love you!~
as i fall to the ground feeling nothing now, nothing at
all, no pain, no sorrow, just blank.
i open my eyes to your face, that sweet face, you look
down at me, tearsin your eyes, overflowing.
i want to reach up but i cant, i cant feel my arms, i go
to talk but you stop me.
you lift me in your arms and then look around as if
looking, searching for something, you find it, you find
the blade.
i look at you,worry intently filling me, shouting
through me.
you look at me and say, ~I heard you, I believed you
and I always loved you, i never meant it, i never meant
the pain, the sorrow, I cant lose you, I need you.~
you lift the blade, you life the blade to your own arm
and cut, you cut up that blue vein, and you whisper,
pain in your voice, ~If you cant live, then i cant live
without you, not now, not ever.~
you grip me tighter and slowly, everything goes black.
everything goes blank.
i feel no pain
i feel no pain of living, no pain of dying, i feel nothing
but your love.....<3