From the Inside

This unknown feeling,
Slowly dealing, Never healing.
I can't rely on myself,
Slowly lowering my health.

I love her today,
Will it stay, never go away.
It's impossible to know,
But the feelings I don't show.

Can't tell what I feel.
It's not real; it steals,
Steals at my own mind,
Leaving me without much time.

I try not to care.
It tears, slowly until there,
Is nothing left but,
A rent that never shuts.

Time and Time again,
I sin, will I win.
To get a hold of,
Myself and stay above.

Above this false thing,
That sings; and inside rings,
Repeating itself evermore,
Leaving my heart tore.

So for the last time.
I resign, I'm blind.
Blind to the reality,
Of each feelings fatality.

So today I will go,
And show, what I've sowed.
Falling to the end,
As everything rends.