The Pain of Loving You

I'm so lost and confused
I don't know where to start
It's times like these
When I can't even trust my heart

When you hurt me last time
I swore it was the end
But now you're back in my life
If only as a friend

I told you that my friendship
Was all I could give to you
But every time we talk
I wonder if that's true

You always pull me back in
And make me want what you can't give
And I'm sorry, I love you
But that's not how I want to live

I don't think I can look at you
And trust you like before
We may have the passion
But I need a whole lot more

You broke my heart
And you betrayed my trust
More than once I've told you
That honesty is a must

I don't want you in my life
Yet I know that isn't true
I just don't know if I can handle
The pain of loving you