Wicked Wallow

I've sank into the dark, dark night.
Thinking of whats all happened.
Wondering if I was right.

Reliving the nightmare,
Of things I'll never know.
Begging myself, my mind to be clear.
And show me where to go.

Every step I've ever taken.
Has been a step to far.
Only leaving every piece broken.

Why do I continue.
To have these wicked feelings?
And to be jealously untrue?

I need to step outside.
And take a look at my soul.
Finally feel the sorrow.
That on the inside only grows.

All I've ever needed.
Was love and touch.
All I've ever gotten,
Was pure anger without lust.

A heart as black as night.
Can only be recognized as my own.
Once with light and shine.
Now ever black and cold.

Wherever I may go.
My dark heart with follow.
I wish you would leave my side!
This darkness I call wallow.

When he shows his love.
Is when this dark heart with leave.
Realize you love me soon.
Until then, I'll stay grieving.