Laying in the dark
thinking about everything that could have been,
should have been.
days and weeks have passed
but I'm still here
comparing every guy
to you.
daydreaming and fantasizing
is nothing new
except the new feeling that comes with it.
I no longer feel hopeful for us
and instead I lay here,
hand pressed against my forehead.
feeling that everything is impossible
and no matter how much I may dream
and wish
I have to face the harsh truth;
that it won't get me anywhere
but a head up in the clouds
and a mind wandering around
in candy land.
so ill sit here and watch you fade,
saying goodbye silently in my heart
and know that
you shined brighter
than anyone ever did.
