A spark that ignited
out of no where
caused confusion,
mental battles,
and lessons learned.
you ignited the flame
and i watched from afar,
admiring the brightness
and listened to every word you spoke,
but pretending that i
minded my own business.
every word you said
hit me deep down in my core
and made me sink down in myself,
my insides melting
by this gooshy thing that
i refused to call 'love'.
but if it aint love, what else could it possibly be?
still refuse to use that word,
and continue to admire from a distance.
you were everything i could ever want,
i could ever need.
but i kept myself back
from the whole love idea
and let you get away.
so I'll sit and watch you walk away
with no idea that
i had so many ideas
of how we could have ended up.
as you walk off into the distance
I'll look down at my feet
and think of that shine you had
when i first started to see you in
that kinda way.
even when I'm gone,
to you nothing will change your
circadian rhythm of life.
your bright glow
shined before me,
and will continue after I'm gone.
just keep doing what you're doing,
cause that's what i admired most about you.
