Forgive Me

I dont mean for this,
I dont want you to cry.
I just cant be your friend,
or I'll just want to die.
I hated when we fought,
I hated when you cried.
I'm sorry we cant be friends,
I'll just die & never say goodbye.
I want you to be happy,
& that cant happen if you have me.
We've called each other things,
& we dont mean them, you see.
I know I've caused you pain,
before this & now.
Please forgive me cuz of this,
I still love you, but I dont know how.
You know I hate when we fought,
especially when you cry.
When we were friends,
You wanted to die.
I dont want to let you go,
& I dont think I ever will.
You know I never want you hurt,
I'm sorry for my words, but still.
My mind always has you,
my thoughts haunt me.
I cant possibly let you go,
but you're still my friend, if you let me.
I'll just let you be,
because I want you happy.
Sorry for what I've done,
just please forgive me.