There is always a reason

My heart is steadily breaking,
From all of this confusion and disbelief.
How do you just stop everything?
And leave me here alone to deal with the grief.

I feel like there's so much to say.
And that your honesty only goes so far.
There is ALWAYS a reason for everything,
I feel like I don't even know who you are.

I've tried, I've begged,
I've prayed, I've pleaded.
But still you shut me out,
And I feel completely defeated.

You act like you don't even care,
Your life just goes on.
My world feels like it stopped,
All my future dreams...gone.

I don't know where to go from here,
Nothing is final but I feel in my heart,
That you are the one who is changing,
And you want a life that doesn't include my part.

What about all of your promises?
What about the future I had dreamed?
What about you saying you'd love me forever?
I guess this wasn't as good as it seemed.

I really feel you know what you want,
And the truth is...I give in.
My intuition points in a direction,
To which I don't think I can win.

It hurts to see you carry on,
And be immersed in this new life you have grown.
I feel used and taken advantage of,
Like I was just a stepping stone.

You don't understand me,
And I definitely don't understand you.
You're always at a loss for words,
But it's your actions that speak it all for you.

You didn't support me when I needed you most,
You turned your back and walked away.
Your love for me stumbled,
And all I know is that's not ok.

A new life, new friends, a new job.
And I fade to the back again.
I hope you find what makes you happy,
Because I may not be there in the end.